I talked to someone a couple days ago. Someone who I haven't talked to in ages, and by ages I'm literally referring to about 4 or so years. But I'm not posting this to talk bout friendships I regret losing, I wanna point out something she made me realize. The conversation started out light talking about who was what, who was dating who, and all that good stuff...the good times. Then she questioned me on if I was still locking myself away from relationships. Of course I denied it and all but she kept pointing out various aspects which all lead to it. Sure I dated, but it was not often where I would strive to keep the bond strong. Plus most of the guys I dated were spur of the moment I guess you can say. Like deciding when you go to buy food, why the hell not, lets grab the burger instead of the steak. Or whatnot haha. Anyways I came to be aware of something which I will update more later cause I'm hungry :3